I am applying to YWAM Kona. I started the application process on Thursday and nothing has ever felt more right. I’m in the middle of this flow, and though it may sound cheesy and overly “Christian”, I’ll say it anyways. In the middle of God’s will for me is the best place I could ever be. I’m not claiming it’s easier, that it isn’t painful or scary, but it’s best. Because when I lay down at night, I know He’s got me wrapped up in His hands. This stubborn heart is finally listening to that scary word He whispered to me flying home from Sydney. Jump. And jump I will.
So what does this mean for me? Well, that’s a great question. To be 100% honest, I’m not sure. Right now I’m applying to be a staff member, and that needs it’s own explanation! I’ll try to do my best to explain what this means, but if you have any questions at all, please, ask me! I love your questions. So basically a staff member is a full time missionary. No, I’m not always going to be in a third world country, but that’s part of it. God calls us to minister to all His children, and this is one great opportunity to serve. So I finished my Discipleship Training School (DTS) in June last year, and through my staff opportunities, I will be able to help lead these schools! That includes a lot of responsibility, but it’s right up my alley. And, YWAM Kona runs this particular school with a photography focus! Now I think I’ll leave all the details about my work to another post, but know that I get to serve God by leading teams through lectures, being a one on one support system for students, use my photography to expose injustices on outreach, and also, most importantly, be the hands and feet of Jesus all over the world. As a missionary I will need to find people who are willing to support me financially to do this work, and although this is a daunting task, I also know that God has been pushing me towards this for a while, and feel confident in the direction He is guiding me to.
In the midst of that, I’ve also recently designed and launched a website for my photography, as well as become a Registered Business owner! How crazy is that? All of these things have been falling into place and I find it so incredible to watch God at work. Recently over the past few months He’s been just overwhelming me, with his provision, his guidance, his sense of humour, He’s just fantastic. I couldn’t say enough about how much He’s impacted me.
And of course with Good Friday coming up soon I’ve tried to take some time to reflect and stand before God in my weaknesses. I used to play piano, it’s something I wish I didn’t give up on, and just today I was sitting before the keys wondering why I was there. So I flipped open my book, and the first song I had dog-eared was “Lamb of God”. Now, I’ve gone back and forth between loving the hymns and wishing they’d be retired, but this one- it always gets to me.
Maybe it’s the way the notes sway together, or the combination of that with the words that just pierce me, but it gets me every time. The sacrifice He made, for me, for you, we look over it so easily. We say it, it rolls off our tongues, “Jesus died for you, on a cross” It comes out so easily, we vomit it out without letting it hit our hearts on the way up. Why? How? I’m sure God didn’t intend for it to be this way, and we don’t either, of course. It’s a challenge to me to remember, to humble myself, to receive His sacrifice, and to make my life my own sacrifice back to Him.
In this next week, prepare your heart. Take time each day to think of what His sacrifice means to you, how it changes who you are, how you live, the way you act and the words you speak. And maybe in reflecting on all this, you’ll learn that it doesn’t effect you all that much. Maybe you’ll learn some things about yourself that you may not like. But remember, His sacrifice was made to make you clean. And if that doesn’t bring you uncontainable joy, I don’t know what will.
Thanks for being with me.
With Strength that is not my own, Sam