It catches you off guard. You’re racing around, making yourself busy, checking things off the list, and all of the sudden it springs out of no where, like the first flower emerging from the snow.
Nothing to do, no where to go, not a person around. These moments come few and far between these days for me, and I’m sure for you as well. And they most certainly catch me off guard. I’m so busy making myself busy that I don’t know how to shut off, close off for a moment and just rest. I hear God calling out to me to take refuge in Him, to rest and fill my cup, but busyness is so enticing. Being busy makes me feel like I’m “doing something” with my life. Think about it- when someone asks you what you have to do today, the majority of us feel better rattling off a list than we would if we said “Nothing. I have absolutely nothing to do today.” Busy sounds important, and that is so wrong.
How many times does the Bible tell us to rest with God? How many times do you hear God calling to His people to come to Him when they are burdened, to cast their cares and worries on Him. Over and over again God invites us to Him, and we respond with a simple “not yet- in a minute”.
I’m almost convinced God hates busy. Of course God loves work, He wouldn’t have created it for us if He hated it. He gave Adam and Eve jobs- so it’s not work that He hates. I think it’s the checklists, the things we add to our already ridiculous lives before completing the tasks we already have. He hates seeing “prayer and Bible time” at the end of the list, if it makes it on the list at all. Why? Well- how are you going to fuel your day if you eat late at night?
We’re looking into a brand new year, one with the chance to bring a vast array of things. Each time we start a new year, we mentally give ourselves a clean slate, a start over, if you will. Take a moment to look over 2012. Enjoy the memories, feel the pain that was so real and present, praise God for a season that is different then any other in your life. Think about things you would have done differently, lessons you learned, perhaps the hard way. Take all of that and spring forward. Look at 2013 as new, fresh, wide open. God calls us to lay what hinders us at the cross and walk hand in hand with Him, and I think the last day of the year is as good as ever to start that. Challenge yourself to read His word more, to perhaps join a Bible study, a prayer group, go volunteer somewhere that you can share His love with others. And don’t underestimate yourself- all things are possible if you walk with Jesus through them, and He will see your desire to know Him more, and He will bless you for it.
Take just one moment- now or later tonight, and rest. Sit in silence before the God who created you, the God who knows the beginning and the end, who’s thoughts about you are too high to count, who sees each tear that falls from your eyes. Take a moment and feel the love He has for you, let it overwhelm you, and just enjoy the gifts He has for you.
Side note: I leave in 5 days. My heart is overwhelmed. I’m happy, sad, excited, scared, expectant, tired and no where near ready, but I’m going. My life is a bit of a mess right now, but I trust that Jesus can make something beautiful out of it. I deeply appreciate your prayers, especially for financial provision. I’m trying my best to keep my focus on God rather than my lack of finances, and also to remember the blessings He has already given to me. I’d like to wish you a very happy new beginning, and thank you for reading this year. I’m ready and excited to see what 2013 has in store.
With Strength that is not my own, Sam